Sometimes life gets in the way of working out, and sometimes you just have to accept that. This Saturday, my grandmother, who I am..er..was extremely close with, passed way. She’s been having highs and lows for a few years now, and the lows finally won. I am dealing with extreme lethargy and apathy, having zero desire to do school work, work out, or really just leave the bed, in general. Her funeral is this Friday, and it is an extreme source of anxiety for me right now. I know that it is going to be an exhausting release of tears and sobs, and a shock to my mind and body. I just want it to be Friday and to deal with it, and come to terms with the reality of this whole thing.
That being said, it’s Monday and I hate missing squat days, so I forged myself into crossfit. As usual when I don’t want to go, I am very glad that I did. It got me out of my head for a little, and reminded me of both my physical, and emotional strength. When tragedy strikes, it’s so important to try to keep a grasp of that, for me at least, so I don’t spiral into a rut. Although it helps to have a great support system reminding me that I’m strong and will get through this, it’s just so much more important and satisfying to recognize and feel that on my own for myself. When all else fails, #justshowup. You’ll be happy you did.
- Squat 2-2-2-2: 120-120-120-120. Unlike last week, these felt amazing. I felt strong and steady at the bottom of each squat, and powered up no problem. I easily could have gone to sets of 2 at 125, but I was sharing the racks with two other girls and I wouldn’t have time to do four more sets after the first two at 120. But since last week’s squats were super questionable, I’m okay with taking another week at 120 across the board.
WOD for Time: 8:50
I was going to go for 55lbs, which was the level II weight, but while I was preparing for the WOD I did a few push presses at 55lbs and my back felt a little wonky. My legs and butt are sore from the pistols on Friday also, so I decided to just go for level I. But I know that I’m more than capable of the box jumps, so I just kept those Rx. I failed on the first rep of the 15set, underestimating how cooked my legs were going to be from the lunges. I caught myself before hitting the floor, shook it out for a second, and went right back at it. I wish I had done maybe 47-50lbs, but at the same time, sitting down is really hard right now as it is, so oh well.
Quinoa, egg, salsa, sweet potato hash, sriracha. Eff yes.
I started taking Cod Liver Oil again today. I used to take it regularly, but my diet wasn’t quite dialed in and I would burp it up for hours after taking it…and it was really gross. So I’m starting slow and building up to a full dose, taking it with my protein shake and making sure to get some fats in very soon after. I only burped once after taking it, and it hardly had any taste, so I think so far I’m doing a good job. This adds to my supplements: 2,000 IUs of Vitamin D, B Complex, Joint Support, and Stress Relief. I’m also starting to try to get in Chia Seeds daily, to get those good Omega-3s. Screw a “spring break/summer/beach body,” I’m working on my LIFE body, and it’s looking damn good.